I can't make heads or tails of my life !!

Last week was kind of a bad week for me..precisely every week is. My so called close friend messaged me saying that her birthday party will be on the 27th. Whatever! The silly thing is she was too excited and trying to get me into the excitement. Nonsense ! Can she see what I'm going through. People are selfish, they use you when they need you and this is an example here. Why should i share her happiness? None of my business. When i needed her, she wasn't even there. I broke up with my ex and was badly hurt by that, and she didn't even care. Suddenly out of nowhere she messaged me to inform that her birthday bash is coming. She kept talking about the decoration, what Saree she wants to wear, what shoes to buy. OMG !! Annoying ! I don't even care a bit. I won't be going to the party for sure. Another person who makes me sick is my sister. I don't know how to say how hurt and angry i am that these people who live with me don't even care about my feelings. I also spilled out my deepest secret because i was too angry and hurt. I regret letting the cat out of the bag. Only me ex knows about it. At times, when you're sad, you just wanna go out and feel good about yourself but whenever i ask my sis out, she would have all her excuses ready. I was too sick of her excuses and begun to argue. She hates my ex. When i was with my bf, she told him to break up with me. Can you imagine, your own sis telling the only one you love that? It was like being stabbed with a knife. It was shocking! People think our relationship was not serious and it was only puppy love. Bullshit! They will never know how much we loved each other and had gone through so much together. Straight from my heart, i really hate my sis..better not to have one. She's selfish and heartless. If you hate whom i love, i don't give a damn, it's my feelings that matter in my relationship. Not yours people, just get a life!! My sis thinks her bf is so smart, so good..yeah right..she doesn't know guys because this is only her first love ever. When i broke up with me ex, i kept it inside..don't blame me. Who should i talk to? My sis? My friends? HA HA. They even liked me breaking up with him. They are happy for me for that reason. I swear to God, i don't bless her relationship, don't give a damn about her so called good bf, don't give a damn about her. She does nothing for me, selfish !! I remember i used to help her a lot getting through her relationship. She even came crying to me...i did everything i could. But when it comes to me, she ignores my feelings completely. She was angry that i told my ex bf about our personal problem. Yeah, besides him, who can i talk to? He was the closest person to me, still is..he's my best friend. He understands how i feel, he cares and he's always there for me. No one else. First time i met a person whom i can trust and tell everything i want to him. And I'm glad i found him because i would be talking to myself and the wall. I hate whenever people talk bad about the person i love, just can't stand it...i will always defend him. You don't know him, i know him. I was surprised myself that he actually has a heart of gold. I know he was like this bad kind of guy but he's totally changed. You know why? Because i was the one who changed him, i was with him for 2 years, i know how he was. No matter how much i got hurt by him, i never hate him, never! And in my life, the happiest times were when i was with him. Now, no one makes me happy, my life is so dull. I laugh and smile less. And i got no interest in life. I hate everything, my close friends, my sis-everything!! Now i must know which side my bread is buttered on. I can't think about people anymore, i must be selfish and i just don't care whatever outcomes i will get. I have to break the mould for my own good.

Messed Up

Nothing much, just hate everything that is happening to me !!

I LOVE BRITNEY JEAN SPEARS !!

I'm just so excited with everything that is going on with Britney. Everyday, i will just sit for hours in front of the pc to watch her videos, read the news, look at her photos and just go through her website and these just put a smile on my face and bring tears to my eyes. I just love her to death, she's amazing overall. She's my inspiration, what i went through was really hard but Britney made me strong and i just look up to her every single day of my life.. Think i'm crazy, but i feel she's like my sister. Although she's not right beside me i still think that she is the one who makes me happy. I didn't have anyone to talk to, not even to my sister..everyone was ignoring and abandoning me. Thank God, i have Britney. She was there for me.. and whenever i read about her and look at her, i would tell myself why i'm still living in the past? Look at Briney, she's getting her life back on track. I really love her and i don't give a damn if you hate her and talk bad about her..all bullshit ! Only her true fans know her and would be there for her. Britney is going nowhere, you see her everywhere, she's an icon. Deal with it world !! I love Briney Spears ! BRITNEY RULES MY WORLD !!!!!
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Madagascar 2

Movie was at 8;15 pm. Went with my mom. I just couldn't wait for the movie to start. Then it started..first it was kind of sad where it showed Alex the tiger was young and some hunters took him away. Then came the funny parts and we all started laughing...the whole cinema was laughing non stop. I enjoyed the movie so much and it made my day. My mom too, enjoyed it. Go and watch the movie, it's good especially for people who are depressed. ~I like to move it move it ~ lolzzzz

It Hurts

I stopped by SPCA Malacca to pay a visit to the animals. I went to the cats' area. Some looked sick. It was really sad seeing them in that condition. The condition of The SPCA Malacca is really really bad. So I urge people to help us. Please Donate and become a volunteer !!People should go there and see how these animals are suffering..Anyway, I went there and this cat came to me and sat near me. And when i looked at it, It didn't have a leg..this cat had been hit by a car and was left there at the SPCA.. people are just so cruel. But it was beautiful, a pretty cat i'd say. It loved the attention.. kept following me everywhere i went. I was looking at every angle of the SPCA and suddenly i saw a kitten dying. It was in a cage with its mother. I was like oh shit, this is not happening. I saw how it suffered and i was standing there crying badly and cursing and swearing GOD for making it suffer .. I was angry and sad. And i just left that place..but i kept thinking about that kitten. May GOD bless its soul~

Life Without Him

It's tough being without him. Used to be with him for almost 24/7. Our favourite place to hang out was Sunway Pyramid.I've been going there alone since we broke up. It's heart breaking to be there and think about the memories we had. Went there for the first time without him last month. I went shopping alone..and yeah it was dull. I was sad at first. And guys kept coming to me and saying hi and these stupid things. I wished he was there to protect me and these strangers would just stay away from me. After a while, i found peace being alone. I went to Nichii and bought a top...all the clothes were ugly, but i managed to find a nice top for myself. Then i went to Warehouse and bought 2 nice tops..was satisfied. After that i stopped by Voir and i saw these nice sexy black high heels...oh god, I tried them on and bought them..And that really made me happy :)Can't wait to wear those high heels.

Beautiful Creatures

I went to PAWS in Subang and donated some clothes. I spent my time there and played with the puppies and cats. There were two puppies in this big cage and i was touching the white one who was slightly bigger than the black pup.It was so playful and waging its tail all the time..i was just laughing. Then it went away. So the other puppy came to me and i touched it, guess what..the white puppy didn't like it and pushed the black puppy away. It was just jealous. Ha ha. Cute !! The reason i went to PAWS was because I wanted to adopt a kitten but when i got there..Oh God, there were too many of them and all were meowing and wanting me to take them..I talked to them, "I wish I could take all of you home." It made me sad to see them...but they were so adorably cute. I took out a kitten from its cage and cuddled it..and the rest of the kittens in the cages looked at me..i felt so bad. I took pictures of them all. Unfortunately i left the place with none.I couldn't make my decision..and my heart felt heavy to take only one home..how about the others? :(