Present vs Past

Life so far has been great. No problems! All thanks to me for being a strong person. I'm now always looking at things in a very positive way. Goods things are coming, i could sense that. Family, studies are great. Love? Well, i've set a record for being single for more than 2 years. Of course i'm not even sad about it. Guys are not my priority. But i must say that i do feel lonely at times. It doesn't affect my life though. Although i'm not searching for love, i find it fun to get to know guys who want to get to know me. Among all, two guys have attracted me in a very different way. I'm therefore confused. To be honest, i'm afraid! Afraid to get my heartbroken. Really really fear of that. This is all because of my past relationship. I was abused and was tested in every way. I have to admit that i nearly gone mad and thinking of suicide. That guy whom i thought really loved me was just using me. He played with my heart, he cheated, lied, slept around, always getting drunk, and abused me mentally, emotionally and physically. Well, i'm very glad that everything is over. He's dead to me. God will punish him definitely ! I'm all good now- a person who is always smiling and loving life. Thank you God !